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Tuesday, June 7, 2011

I dreamt about you last night .

hell yeah . I woke up for my sahur and I was in tears . I swear I never, ever cried for something like this before . It's about you .... and I .

you had left without a single word . I know you never know how much I care about you . I asked you and you keep denying . But hey , I know you since I was in primary 2 and I know you were lying to me . Though , I never be ready to let you go .

Dream . How I wish this time it's for real . I know you're doing well in somewhere out there , your world is not here . Please , do well out there , achieve your ambition . Never back out like what you just did , anytime in the future . You have chosen your own way . We are worlds apart once again .

Knowing that you're taking the same course with me makes me smile like the world is mine . I never expect that we met once again . As my tears fell down in the mist of the dawn , our memories were flashed back clearly in my mind . How we laughed together , doing work together , being scolded for something silly and even the biggest issue of the year (hiperbola) , we did fight , like anyone else did . And in fact , that fight had driven us further apart . gosh , I miss my primary years .... with him .

Yeah , I had that kind of feelings to you before , which I never felt to others before , and maybe even after this . we know better than anyone else do . yeah , we still a kid those days but for everything , I am very thankful . well , frankly the feelings getting faded day per day and I do realize that we're not meant to be as one . so I let it go , I'm moving on .

despite , I wish you never appear again . because I never want that sparks again . the superb three weeks I went through with your presence , were the weeks that I wanna treasure forever because I doubted that we're going to meet again after this , unless God has decides for it .

I hope to become your friend , just friends . inside my tiniest heart , there'll always a soft spot for you and all the memories left . As long as I live , the memories alive . No one can change that . I repeat , no one .

for you , please , take a good care of yourself . I won't be there even if I really wish I am . do well . God's willing , we'll see each other again one fine day .

Oh God , tears fell down , again .

P/S : to readers , think what you please to . I write what I feel right . annyeong .
1:23 PM
aku tak menyesal .
Wednesday, May 25, 2011

hey all . how are yaa ? I hope everyone is still with a sweet smile lingering by your lips . like me :-p

I'm fine , here . despite of all the stress I'm facing during stuDYING but I guess , it's still bearable . I got new mates here and they're superbly happening . thanks to ya'll .

malas feraa mau cerita panjang-panjang. pendek kata, kehidupan di U superb. yaa , superb. cuma pesan fera, pandai-pandailah bawa diri yaa . bnyak godaan, sumpah bnyak godaan ! solat? aha ! urusan masing2x sama Tuhan saja tuh. tiada siapa mau tegur sudaa. zaman sekolah seja tuh orang tegur2x. parents jauh, kawan tak kisah pun. lantak pi laa. haha. ohh and and, uhm. okay fine. feraa cam mau buka tudung seja ya dat day. haizz . setan btul. hahaa.

ehh. bnyak lagi mau cerita. tunggu la next time. si kawan ajak study sudaa. hahaha. kejap bahh, pyeka !

untuk kau . orang suruh dengar , bukan didengar jugakk . apalah .

Menunggu sesuatu yang sangat menyebalkan bagiku
Saat ku harus bersabar dan trus bersabar
Menantikan kehadiran dirimu
Entah sampai kapan aku harus menunggu
Sesuatu yang sangat sulit tuk ku jalani
Hidup dalam kesendirian sepi tanpamu
Kadang ku berfikir cari penggantimu
Saat kau jauh disana

Walau raga kita terpisah jauh
Namun hati kita selalu dekat
Bila kau riduku pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku

Kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
Percayakan kesetiaan ini
berkat ketulusan a a ai aishiteru

Gelisah sesaat saja tiada kabarmu kucuriga
entah penantianku takkan sia-sia
dan berikan satu jawaban pasti
entah sampai kapan aku harus bertahan

saat kau jauh disana rasa cemburu
merasuk kedalam pikiran ku melayang
tak tentu arah tentang dirimu
apakah sama yang kau rasakan

Walau raga kita terpisah jauh
Namun hati kita selalu dekat
Bila kau riduku pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku

Kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
Percayakan kesetiaan ini
berkat ketulusan a a a aishiteru

Saat ku sendiri pikiran melayang terbang
Prasan resah gelisah jalani kenyataan hidup tanpa gairah o u oo
Lupakan segala obsesi dan abmbisimu
Akhiri semuanya cukup sampai disini
dan buktikan pengorbanan cintamu padaku
Kumohon kau kembali

kimiga kumo kumii tenmo
kinoho boy ga shino ga ruta a
Shineteruyo shineteruyooo

Walau raga kita terpisah jauh
Namun hati kita selalu dekat
Bila kau riduku pejamkan matamu
dan rasakan a a a aku

Kekuatan cinta kita takkan pernah rapuh
terhapus ruang dan waktu
Percayakan kesetiaan ini
berkat ketulusan a a a aishiteru

wo wo wo
wo wo wo a a ai aishiteru

ngam kan ? hahaha .
1:46 PM
Asasi Sains , UMS
Sunday, May 15, 2011


ASASI SAINS 2011/2012
Universiti Malaysia Sabah .

here I come . lalala~

Such a drastic decision . I turned down my offer to IIUM before just to go for Science Foundation offered by UMS . I was damn shocked when the officer rang me on last Wednesday , right at 5.30pm and she expected a yes from me in just half an hour . okay finee ! I was in the middle of the downtown and guess what ? I just said a yes to them even before I made up my mind .

I was kind of feeling down when I know few of my friends got the offer from UMS and I forgot all about my application to this U after being offered by IIUM . just right after the UMS officer rang me , IIUM was completely not in my mind anymore so I guess, I decided by then that I wanna be here , not IIUM .

My dad wasn't the happiest person in the world while I told him about the offer, the whole thing, and the way i felt bout it. It's a total vice versa with my mum as she really encouraged me to accept the offer. so yeah, I guess, deep inside my heart, I feel that it's the way that He opened for me to achieve the thing that I dreamt before.

My heart sank when I got to know that I have to register the next monday, which is tomorrow . Okay finee again ! I felt that as my holidays taken away all of sudden, out ofthe blue and I'm not sure if I say I'm happy with it . Months before, I bragged too much that I'm so bored of the long holiday after SPM and when the time finlly comes to continue studies, I really hope I can turn back time back then :-p

So , since december 2010 until mid May 2011 I was spending an awesome holiday at home with my besties accompanied me all the time. I became the so called K-POP fanatic fan (uiseyh) and that one thing which I found and will be kept safe inside me <3

All in all , I'm enjoying my holiday and how I wish I can get more but it's just a complete freaky idea . Tomorrow I'll be going for registration and I'm not sure when I can update this blog again. If .. if only there are readers out there , I'm so so so sorry if I can't prepare you an update . till then , bye bye .

Just remember that everything under the sun will one day meets an end. Bear in mind that everything that ends , another begins . Appreciate everything you have while it's still with you. But then, best as human, we never knew the true value of something until we lose them.
10:19 PM
at last , I couldn't ask for more :)
Friday, May 6, 2011


hot topic for today for most of the SPM leavers .
mengalahkan banana fritters :-p


Alhamdulillah . Our praises to ALLAH SWT .
I got an offer for Eonomics and Management Science Foundation , IIUM .
My dad is superbly feeling happy bout this.
And thanks to my mum , at last she can acccept my decision :)

Semua ada hikmahnya .
9:25 PM
we just have to open our eyes , hearts and mind :)
Wednesday, May 4, 2011

kamu pernahkah, masa kamu ada masalah and cerita dgn org lain, could be your friends, parents, etc etc, then bila dorang x tahu suda mau cakap apa, simply saying "don't worry, ada hikmahnya tuh" . rasanya mesti pernah kan ? kan ? so , berdasarkan pengalaman fera, to those yang masih boleh fikir waras+positif+jernih lagi masa tuh bolehlah rasa relieve eventho masalah makin menimbun. tapi for those yang masa tuh bercelaru betul, 9/10 akan kata, "jemu sudah aku dengar ada hikmah. lagipun, aku yang lalui. kau senanglah cakap....." and bla bla bla lagilah. orang mau bagi tenang, makin pulak dia membebel. hahaha. however, I guess, normal lah tuh.

tapi tahukah anda atau yakinkah anda, bahawa sesungguhnya hikmah tuh memang ada pun. bagi sesiapa yg percaya, memang tahulah kan. and amazingly, hikmah tuh sebenarnya senang seja pun di trace. buka minda. jangan sempitkan. lihat dgn mata hati, bukan tambah makan hati. dan sesungguhnnya, mereka yang buat self-reflection seja yang akan nampak hikmah kurniaan-Nya nie.

kenapa jugak fera cakap-cakap pasal nie ? kenapa ? hahax . sebab this is part of my self-reflection lah kiranya nie. perkara berbangkit ialah ; kebanyakan studies application fera ndak telampau cerah masa depan . hahahahax ( ketawa x ikhlas) . nanti kejap fera explain. kejap ya. sambung dulu membebel. hehe. tapi kan, bila fera fikir balik. bagus jugak fera ndak dapat apa yang fera mau tuh. i mean, fera cakap nie sekadar apa yang fera boleh fikirlah. yang beyond my sight and knowledge tuh, Wallahualam jak lah ya.

sekadar yang fera ingat, fera pernah hampa sebab yang berikut ;

  1. masa form 1, cita-cita mau pegi SMSLD, ikut jejak abang kunun. tapi apakan daya, k.o sikit sains masa UPSR a.k.a nda dapat A. maka, secara automatiknya permohonan rejected. sedih.
  2. oh. x mau terima fera masa form 1 ya, nda apa. tunggu. meningkat masa akhir form 3, semangat apply lagi SM Sains. tapi still jugak nda dapat. even hantar rayuan pun, nda kena peduli mcm tuh rayuan. punya sandik perasaan :(
  3. masa form 4, di MRSM. hahax. nda dapat itu jawatan BWP. bikin malu betul. wakaka.
  4. jump pegi form 5, nda dapat apply SPC, biasiswa MARA Pra SPM untuk bidang perubatan. yang layak pun untuk bidang perakaunan. gasak jak lah, cuba nasib. tapi itupun nda dapat jugak. sudahlah bgitu, kena kick-off lagi masa interview utk scholarship itu.
  5. result SPM yang..........................
  6. terkini, main reason for tonight's entry, ndak dapat tawaran Asasi Sains, UMS. err ... sedapkan sikitlah ayat nie, belum terima panggilan tawaran lagi.
and banyak lagi sebenarnya. tapi malas mau tulis lagipun, namanya jugak NDAK DAPAT. mau bising kenapa, kan. hahahax. so, fikir balik, this is what I managed to think and it's such relieving me ;


  1. kalau fera dapat itu tawaran SMSLD, mesti fera akan dispute sama parents. parents memang against my desire to go there as soon as I was only in form 1 that time. masih mau dimanja2x lagi kali. hahahax. lagipun, kalau fera recruited in dorm life awal betul, nda fera rasa bebas jadi budak sekolah harian. hehe. lagipun fera budak bukan studious punya jenis. mau disuap seja, a.k.a budak tuition. hehe.
  2. ya, nda dpt lagi masa form 4 . kalau fera diterima masuk pegi SMSLD , xkan lah fera kenal sama MRSM. fera x jmpa kawan yang best like everyone whom I befriend now, no chance keluar dari Sabah just to represent the college, and banyak lagilah. lagipun , kena di Tawau jak. masih dekat sama family. hahax. ketara manja :-p . and banyak lagilah. in a nutshell (chewah), I won't have the chance to experience every bittersweet moments I had been going through while in MRSM.
  3. x dapat BWP ? hahahax . bersyukur berabis ! kalau fera jadi BWP , rasanya study fera jadi kacau berabis. namanya jugak bukan studious person. any distraction would have made me getting zero in the end. xdapat BWP, fera jd LDP. muehehehehe. uhm . ok fine. bunyik mcm bangga tpi nda pun. biasa seja. a lot more better than me.
  4. I thought at that time by not getting the SPC is the most damn failure I've ever come across in my whole lifetime until no more tears because of like an endless crying. tapi, kalau fera dapat tawaran tuh, belum tentu lagi fera dpt buat dgn baik. short course so semua pun jadi kind of rushing. bagi yang hebat, mungkin perkara biasa jak tuh. and fera xkan ada cuti yang panjang. stress continue after SPM. lagipun, who knows in some point in the future, medic is the one that is meant for me, instead of accounting. right? so yeah, for this particular reason, I'm being grateful even until now :)
  5. result SPM memang agak kacau. nangis depan kawan, cikgu and daddy masa tuh. tapi masa fera balik rumah lepas tuh, fera ambil my certificates file. then terselak pulak slip keputusan setiap semester masa form 4 n 5. I compared them to my SPM result and guess what? I'm crying for the sake of happiness and satisfaction ever ! yalah bah, rasanya ramai jugak yang tau fera mana pernah dapat result sedemikian rupa. hahax.
  6. arh yang ini , belum berani cakap . hahax . yg fera pasti , ada lagi rezeki lebeyh baek masa depan :)
wah wah . towards the end of the post sudah nie. fera pun penat sudah sebenarnya menaip panjang2x padahal belum tentu jugak ada yang baca. hahax. nda apa. yang penting fera puas hati. ok guys, hayati nie ;

boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya.

Surah Al-Baqarah , ayat 216.


Bak kata Niza Soraya, sudah terang lagi berspotlight, Allah itu Maha Mengetahui segala kejadian di langit dan di bumi. Yakinlah dengan ketetapan-Nya. Yakinlah pada hikmah-Nya. beyond what we know, He knows and He is the best. selagi seseorang itu berpegang teguh pada kata-kata hikmah ini atau yang sewaktu dengannya, nescaya kekecewaan itu xkan berpanjangan.

Tamat . at last . thanks for reading .
9:56 PM
bukan rezeki .
Monday, May 2, 2011


maka , zaman fera berseragam sekolah dengan rasminya , TAMAT .
11:28 PM
Evanescence said ;
Sunday, May 1, 2011

call me when you're sober .
10:48 PM